Changes That Come in the New Season

Welcome wanderers. You probably find this post by mistake, but I'm glad. It's your first day here as it is mine. So, once again, welcome.

In this season of my life, the word I am focusing on is here. I've noticed that in the few months of 2018, my mind has been completely boggled. Sometimes, I find my self thinking of ten different things at a time. Yet, at other times, I cannot find a single thought to cross my mind and it seems like there's been no in between lately. My solution to this is to get out of my head. That's why my word is here. My intention is to think less (within reason, of course), and do more.

One of my biggest flaws is that I'm a human planner. I love lists, agendas, and everything in between. But, schedules don't always go as planned and sometimes tasks are left unchecked; and that's okay. I am growing to learn that no matter how much I plan ahead of time, life is going to take its course. For every hundred plans I've made, God has ninety-nine alternate plans in store for me.

It's time to ditch the obsession with making plans for post graduation and stop worrying about where I might live in ten years. All of that will come with time and experiences. However, there are some things I'm not ditching, like the lists that actually help and motivate me. We all know that New Year's Resolutions are popular, but no one ever sticks to them. Yeah, ditch that and start a new list. A list of daily goals. I've started planning out my goals for the next day, the night before. These goals are simple, I mean real simple. For example, "smile at more of my co-workers today." I'm telling you. It's that simple.

Going back to the idea of less thinking, and more doing, I need to learn that the time is now. Whatever it is that I want to do, I can't wait. I'm not guaranteed tomorrow, so why would I waste today. For years, I've been wanting to make a page like this. In fact, I've made multiple pages, and taken down multiple pages. It always seemed like an impulse decision that I got bored of shortly after. Or, sometimes the name of the page never seemed creative, or attractive enough. Finally, a name sparked with me the other night, "Dear Ballerina..."

Growing up, I had a few different nicknames: Ang, Angie, Angelina Macaroni, Angelina Ballerina, etc. But then, there was one that always stuck out, "Ballerina." This one wasn't "Angelina Ballerina," just "Ballerina." One family member has called me this since I was small. It's not a name anyone else called me, or anyone else really noticed I was being called, but I did. It's a name that always made me feel special, for no reason at all. So, what better of a name for this page than "Dear Ballerina..."

My intentions for this page are just to talk it out (or, I guess write it out). Whatever it is that's been going on in my life or has been on my mind. Who knows where this page my go, but here's a start.

love always,

angelina

#perspective #outlook #newlife